Be careful what you wish for, well that truly rings true for me currently. I left my last job because I was not busy enough and felt my brain was turning into mush. Even though it seemed like quite an exciting job at the time, working for two Private Investigators, it was far from that. I thought I would get to see and hear interesting juicy stuff, like you do on an episode of Cheaters, but it was mainly corporate investigations of fraud, theft and reference checks. In Jo’burg that’s like ’strawberry jam on toast’.

So I left, I had put my C.V. on the internet and gone to a couple of personnel agencies and then I got the call. The interview turned out to be more than successful and I started straight away. I wanted to be busy, damn did I get my wish! I certainly manifested it and now I am not sure I want it. I work for 7 psychologists, seven! Pedantic, painfully analytical therapists who in my opinion have more issues than their patients.

I have my own issues and now I have to deal with others’ as well, and the owner of the centre called me in last week for a quick session to explain to me how they got to choose me for the job. Started off on saying how spiritual she and her partner of the business are and how they believe in manifestations and energies and so forth. Well, I am too all for that, but it just seemed to me like a sales pitch at the time.

She explained how her husband had died from a heart attack two years ago and how the nitty gritties of the business took a bit of a backfall. They then employed a lovely lady who was the backbone of the reception etc. She then found something better and left, and then they employed another lady and another who were just not right for the job. That is when they both decided to write down a list of all the things they were looking for and then closed their eyes or something and the mouse landed on my name.

This is when she explains further that I am there for a purpose and when I feel my buttons are being pushed, I must ask myself the question: ‘What is it that I am here to learn?’

Today was breaking point for me ‘I think’ I realised that maybe my lesson here is to try put up with people’s shit and have a gentle approach to those who need healing. But how does someone who is so broken about so many things get to heal others? Especially when I feel that more than just my buttons are being pushed, it’s more like a fuse has been set to go off. It really is a hectic position working for all seven of them, juggling and multi tasking that I don’t even have time to pick my nose.

I feel more like Cinderella being asked to scrub the floors by her nasty step sisters than Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs who were her friends and guides, if you get my drift.

I now have Cell C to thank for my new found friend with whom I get more lap dances at night than most random guys get at Teazers.  Yes my cell phone contract was upgraded and the special deal was a free laptop from a corporate sales executive which is just a glorified name for a sales person.

Now the better half and I both have sleepless nights glued to our LCD’s never mind the television which is also in the bedroom.  It is great to have a hobby and to be updated on the outside world, however how healthy is it for the relationship I sometimes wonder?

I guess everything should be done in moderation, so as long as we keep it to a bare minimum and rather get our bodies as bare as possible. The only hour long lap dances will be the ones I  perform for the hubby.