I am so disenchanted with the ramifications of this unsettling set of symptoms I am now experiencing on a weekly even daily basis. At first I dismissed it as stress, maybe even anxiety related, but now it just seems to have crept into my life very real and there, where I feel I have no control whatsoever. I feel completely helpless, like a child whose fallen into a well and am shouting from down below, only to hear my own echoes shouting back at me.

Could these symptoms have manifested through my thoughts and fears I have had throughout my life? Have I brought this upon myself? I am just tired of feeling uncertain and would like results for once. It started with me getting a kind of migraine that affects my vision in such a way that I can only see part of some things,not the whole picture. Visual disturbances of some sort, but the migraine is sometimes without pain and sometimes the pain follows after. It lasts around 20 to 30 minutes and then I regain my full vision again. It is rather unsettling though, as I cannot understand what brings this on exactly.

Then recently I have been experiencing dizziness and a feeling of faintness also quite frequently. I eventually decided to go to a GP/Homeopath and she told me that I could very well be suffering from a low blood sugar related illness by the name of Hypoglycemia. We did the necessary blood tests, which came back perfectly normal. The symptoms however persisted to a point where I find myself daily consumed and obsessed with reading all about the ins and outs of hypoglycemia on the net. Then I read that apparently there are two types and the one is basically difficult to detect and that one is called reactive hypoglycemia. So now where does this leave me? Once again in the dark, at the bottom of the well shouting and screaming for air.

Okay maybe I’m being a tad melodramatic, but it’s plain torture when your life is now hampered and limited to only so much to do without being plagued by these debilitating symptoms. I try and find the humor by telling myself that maybe I’m just being a Hypochondriac instead of Hypoglycemic. Doctors are also just so helpful and seem to know so much and I say this with the utmost sarcasm I can fester. Low blood pressure to hypo whatever to blah blah blah. My husband is sitting next to me watching all the upcoming attractions for this valentines and feigning narcolepsy. He’s not much of a romantic, anyway I say this because he could be putting his good energy into helping me diagnose this problem I seem to have. Again the dribel of crap seems to keep running out my head and onto this blog.

All I ask is for straight clear cut answers and I think the only way forward now is to go put that medical aid to good use and go do all the necessary neurological tests. These ocular migraines don’t just come out of nowhere, even though I feel like I’m Alice in Wonderland on some kind of acid trip. Before I put all my readers on a narcolepsy trip, I will now stop feeling sorry for myself and pull myself towards myself.

LOL.