Current Mood: Angry

I woke this morning thinking of revenge. Not the tit for tat kind of revenge, but the kind of ‘Deathproof’ Quentin Tarantino revenge. Where the object of my newly found affection is placed in a deathproof vehicle and I the driver/stunt lady drive the car off a cliff. My side of the car is of course not affected, because it’s made that way. However this particular person is so fucked up beyond recognition that I am smiling. Then I think again, why do I allow this person who is not worthy of a single thought, not even a fart, affect me this way? I will rise up above this piece of shit and cast my emotions aside, because I know now that I don’t have to waste a single minute any longer pretending to be nice anymore.

The crazy thing is people behave in such different ways aligned with different circumstances, that you can never say how someone will behave for sure….we are such complicated creatures, as much as we think we know someone, we are animals. Animals behave unpredictably, especially the human kind, who have both complicated emotions and mind and still have raw animal instinct which can over ride the mind.

So many things can lead to people letting you down….one of them that comes to mind is Jealousy, which turns a lot of people to backstabbing.

But when a person is trying so hard to tarnish a persons reputation it is a very bitter pill to swallow, especially when this person has pretended to be your friend. I never did fully trust or like this person so it is not difficult to rid this person from my life for good.

The best thing for me to do is not let myself be affected by this persons own demons and issues and rise above, rise above so high and float away. Gone. this person does not even exist in my mind, thoughts, life, being anymore.