The few weeks events that has occurred in South Africa leaves me disillusioned, appalled and in a newly state of macabre emotions. What was once described as a ‘Sunny South Africa’ is now adverbily described as the dark and gloomy cloud which hangs above us all. The rain falling down from this dark cloud are the tears we all feel for those that have been so greatly affected by what is known as ‘Xenophobia’

The violent and inexcusable actions of those that are not deemed to be called human have shocked us all, not to mention our own President who blatantly turns a blind eye. Holding hands with a tyrant and more concerned of what is happening in neighbouring countries, than on own his own doorstep.

I sometimes think of the French Revolution and how Marie Antoinette was eventually beheaded, because of all the wrongs she had committed to her country. Bring back the Revolution and let us rid ourselves of these corrupt individuals who seem to cause more mayhem than anything else. But again, why lower ourselves to their level of existence.

How our President said that there is no crisis when there is in fact a titantic of a crisis in Zimbabwe baffles me to no end. Step down from your post, if u are unable to follow through. More so pull your finger out your arse and do something good for a change.

Current Mood: Angry

I woke this morning thinking of revenge. Not the tit for tat kind of revenge, but the kind of ‘Deathproof’ Quentin Tarantino revenge. Where the object of my newly found affection is placed in a deathproof vehicle and I the driver/stunt lady drive the car off a cliff. My side of the car is of course not affected, because it’s made that way. However this particular person is so fucked up beyond recognition that I am smiling. Then I think again, why do I allow this person who is not worthy of a single thought, not even a fart, affect me this way? I will rise up above this piece of shit and cast my emotions aside, because I know now that I don’t have to waste a single minute any longer pretending to be nice anymore.

The crazy thing is people behave in such different ways aligned with different circumstances, that you can never say how someone will behave for sure….we are such complicated creatures, as much as we think we know someone, we are animals. Animals behave unpredictably, especially the human kind, who have both complicated emotions and mind and still have raw animal instinct which can over ride the mind.

So many things can lead to people letting you down….one of them that comes to mind is Jealousy, which turns a lot of people to backstabbing.

But when a person is trying so hard to tarnish a persons reputation it is a very bitter pill to swallow, especially when this person has pretended to be your friend. I never did fully trust or like this person so it is not difficult to rid this person from my life for good.

The best thing for me to do is not let myself be affected by this persons own demons and issues and rise above, rise above so high and float away. Gone. this person does not even exist in my mind, thoughts, life, being anymore.

Im sure you’ve all heard that well known song ‘Where Have all the Cowboys Gone,’ well it got me thinking. Where, oh where have all the Good old fashioned straight forward people gone?

I was having a conversation with my cousin today and we were just chatting in general about people and how straight forward we both are when it comes to showing people our true colours. No pussy footing around, no mind games, just the truth, like it, dont like, fuck it, whateva.

And there are so many people out there who in my opinion play too many mind games, with themselves never u mind. For instance, you make arrangements with someone to go out somewhere or whatever the case, then out of the blue, you either dont hear from that person or the person has some lame excuse. Then out of the blue again, the person that vanished without trace calls with some silly explanation. I call these people the Merlins of Merlins (Merlin, the magician, get it), or the Lone Ranger (referring to one of my friends) that is notoriously known for this.

What do people have to hide, that the simple truth evades them. Not only are they giving themselves a bad name, but they are denying themselves the simple beauty of knowing that they can always be true to others as importantly as to themselves.

And Im not talking about the simple white lies that some of us sometimes make, Im talking about the continual let down on people and wasting other people’s time.

Anyway I’m just feeling very sorry for myself today.

Over and Out.

What we project out into the universe, always comes back. Why is it that when people feel down, depressed they enjoy speaking to people whose life is far off worse than theirs.

I think it’s because they are under the impression it makes them feel a lot better to know they not suffering as much as the next.

Sometimes I read the news with all the morbid things that are happening in this world, the crime in South Africa. It certainly does not make me feel any better, it makes me sad and depresses me even more!

To cut a long story short, there is this blog worsethanyou.blogspot.com dedicated to those sort of people. The ones that try and make themselves feel better after reading about others’ distressing pathetic lives. I was reading this, out of curiosity and came across another article about some “suicide matchmaker” website, where the websites including suicide circle claim to be the place for depressed people to get together and communicate, but often result in group suicide pacts. Need I say more.

If you truly want to lift your spirits, rather surround yourself with light, love and positive people. Not those who are going to bring you down even more.

Last nights child abuse segment on Carte Blanche shocked and disheartened me. The two most recent stories to date on two children who both died from the severe beatings they had endured. Little Jordan who died from a head injury, his mother and her lesbian lover have now been convicted of first degree murder. Nikita who also had died the next morning after her father had beaten her and then locked her in the bathroom, to be discovered the next day by her grandmother. Both these stories brought me to tears. What is this world coming to I ask myself? Why is there so much affliction and evil and what makes me even more mad is that the system is what seems to be failing us. What bewildered me was the fact that women involved in domestic violence have more protection against violence than small helpless children. The young voices of today therefore cannot be protected the way they are supposed to be. It’s as though the department of social welfare have turned a blind eye, saying it’s due to not having adequate funds. How absurd to think we can and must accept an excuse like this. I just cannot swallow or digest an excuse like that. No-one should. Justice must be done to eradicate these barbarians from our society. We have to stand together to make sure we help give the muted children’s voices back.